My tub sucks!!!
Showing posts with label Things that make me mad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Things that make me mad. Show all posts
Why bother?
I was so sore today and all I could think of was a hot tub; since that wasn't available I settled for a bath, got some very hot water in and a nice peppermint lavender bubbles to help me relax - I go in and remember that....
I have made a decision that my next house - if doesn't have a decent size tub where I can soak in my WHOLE body in - I may as well just have a shower! This little tub its such a teaser!
No laughing matter – or gas
I had a dentist appointment today and yeah – he wouldn't give me the gas today – that made me mad!
“no – it's a smaoulll – smaoulll you kno?” (heavy Indian accent)
SMALL???? so why was I numb all the way up to my ears and even lost part of my vision on my left eye for 7 long freaking hours?
Now that it's over my mouth its so sore! I feel like he raped my gums!
So after today's appointment I'm convinced that my dentist is a butcher! Never going back there! That is for sure!
“no – it's a smaoulll – smaoulll you kno?” (heavy Indian accent)
SMALL???? so why was I numb all the way up to my ears and even lost part of my vision on my left eye for 7 long freaking hours?
Now that it's over my mouth its so sore! I feel like he raped my gums!
So after today's appointment I'm convinced that my dentist is a butcher! Never going back there! That is for sure!
Things that make me mad/smile
I was laying in bed trying to go to sleep and my brain was just going a thousand miles an hour, I couldn't relax with all things coming to my mind that I wanted to write about it; so I get up and come down here to the computer and my mind goes blank.
I mean TOTALLY 110% BLANK and I cannot remember one thing, not one little tinny thing! This is the kind of shit that drives me insane! =oP
So here goes a little conversations I had with Ben weeks ago and had posted on "draft"
Benji asks: "Does Jesus has powers like God?"
Me - yes, remember Jesus is God's son!
B: "I knew it!" - he got quiet for a minute and he said: If He has power is He EVER gonna make spring and summer again?
I mean TOTALLY 110% BLANK and I cannot remember one thing, not one little tinny thing! This is the kind of shit that drives me insane! =oP
So here goes a little conversations I had with Ben weeks ago and had posted on "draft"
Benji asks: "Does Jesus has powers like God?"
Me - yes, remember Jesus is God's son!
B: "I knew it!" - he got quiet for a minute and he said: If He has power is He EVER gonna make spring and summer again?
Then tell me what am I supposed to do????
So this morning I had to wake Noah up to take Ben to school. It was a busy crazy morning... I took Noah from the bed, got him into the car with a cup of chocolate milk and we left. As I get to the school Noah is crying because he needs to go pee. I can only imagine how bad he needs to go (usually, like pretty much everyone I know he goes to the bathroom right after he wakes up with a full bladder) so I knew I had no time to go inside and get him to a bathroom... It is a lil walk until the building and I KNEW we had no time. So before I even spent a minute thinking what do to I took him out of the car and told him to go pee on in my car tire. Very discret (really) he went very close to the car and only put his pee pee out and did his business. No flashy - no big deal. EXCEPT when I look around there are LITERALLY 6 mom's STARING at us!!! Like staring as if I committed a murder or something!
I mean it's not like we do this every time - it's not like I was gonna let him do it on his pants and have all that to get stressed about! And have to go back home with a wet pants on the car seat blah blah blah !
I'm sorry to say - and I DO NOT want to sound rude... but this would NOT be such a big deal in Brasil and it makes me SO annoyed!
People are so quick to judge.
I mean it's not like we do this every time - it's not like I was gonna let him do it on his pants and have all that to get stressed about! And have to go back home with a wet pants on the car seat blah blah blah !
I'm sorry to say - and I DO NOT want to sound rude... but this would NOT be such a big deal in Brasil and it makes me SO annoyed!
People are so quick to judge.
A mother's worst fear...
Its to have your children in danger - sick or anything that may hurt them.
If I would ask you what is a mother's biggest fears I'm sure you could come up with a neverending list; and we know how to prevent many of them to happen, and we pray for God to protect our little ones.
But what we should have fear of is the things we cannot control and the things we can't think of - there for you can't prevent!
And of course for me that happens more often then not and is just that one things that happens in the movies and you don't think it can ever happen for real - well... yes those are the ones that happen to me!
We have one of our sofas against a window - there is blinds and curtains on there.
The boys jump in the couch - everyday! Every single day - and that is the only couch they are allowed to jump on... and often they will flio into the back of the couch and scoot over from behind...
So this morning - right under my nose - next to me - Noah was jumping - like he always do getting out from the back and running back to do it all over again when - BLAH!
The cords on the blindes got stuck on his neck! At first I didn't realized he was serious and when I realized I he was chocking.
I helped him take the cords out - and sat down to sink in what had just happened and get my legs to stop shaking. I can just thank God for watching over him and protecting him at that time!
*sign*
Right after it happened
Tonite, during bath time - not much better!
Being so lucky the way I'm someone just may call child services on me thinking I was trying to hurt my son! =oP
Good > Bad
A couple things that made me feel BAD this week:
* Yesterday I had to call Dani and let her know I couldn’t watch her kids – when after all it really would not be a problem – I was just overreacting! She is just always there for me and it felt so bad to call out on her with such a short notice.
Also canceled out on Simone in less then a hour to our plans - and again - that just makes me feel like crap! Maybe beucase I hate when people do that to me and/or just because I really care about them…
* Today I missed the actual “birth” of my friend M’s baby; by a couple of hours. I absolutely overreacted again, got extremely overwhelmed and messed up. This really upset me, I am *SO* disappointed but I’m gonna get over it.
Especially because it was about a birth, something that I’m very obsessed about it.
* Now - this is no “bad” but I’m bummed that I haven’t got a time that works for the both of us to take Shay to the new place yet! Let’s try this week girl!
But it makes good to talk about the GOOD, so let’s do it:
* Angela got me excited about the new house, I actually got so see some potential after we walked around getting some ideas and even painted one of the walls. Angela is such a strong woman who has an awesome life story that amazes me! She is always cheering me up, giving me some of the greatest advices, and spreading her positivism all around!
* I’m actually overall happy I got to go to the hospital with M, I’m happy for them that they had a healthy baby girl, 7 lbs, no name yet! I’m so proud of her for doing it pain medication free and very honor that she called and wanted for me to go! =) I did what I could and I just need to remember that!!! I can’t wait to see this baby girl!!
* Our friend Kevin is in town! =) We haven’t seeing him in a while so I’m very excited to get together! Dan is out with him tonite – tomorrow we are heading out of down for the day but Sunday we’ll be back for more! Kevin is the very few of Dan’s friend that had become “my” friend too, when and he first moved to Cali it was sad! - (still is). I’m glad to have a chance to see him and for the boys to once again play with uncle Kev.
* Daia turned 22, we had a great time at her party and met some very fun people
* I just realize more and more each day how much I love my 3 boys, how much they love each other, how much we are DOEOs and DOGs and that get us so close and tight as a strong and happy family. When I look back and see how much we being trough together all I can do is thank God.
I’m addicted to them! My love it’s like Dari said “Unquenchable”.
* Yesterday I had to call Dani and let her know I couldn’t watch her kids – when after all it really would not be a problem – I was just overreacting! She is just always there for me and it felt so bad to call out on her with such a short notice.
Also canceled out on Simone in less then a hour to our plans - and again - that just makes me feel like crap! Maybe beucase I hate when people do that to me and/or just because I really care about them…
* Today I missed the actual “birth” of my friend M’s baby; by a couple of hours. I absolutely overreacted again, got extremely overwhelmed and messed up. This really upset me, I am *SO* disappointed but I’m gonna get over it.
Especially because it was about a birth, something that I’m very obsessed about it.
* Now - this is no “bad” but I’m bummed that I haven’t got a time that works for the both of us to take Shay to the new place yet! Let’s try this week girl!
But it makes good to talk about the GOOD, so let’s do it:
* Angela got me excited about the new house, I actually got so see some potential after we walked around getting some ideas and even painted one of the walls. Angela is such a strong woman who has an awesome life story that amazes me! She is always cheering me up, giving me some of the greatest advices, and spreading her positivism all around!
* I’m actually overall happy I got to go to the hospital with M, I’m happy for them that they had a healthy baby girl, 7 lbs, no name yet! I’m so proud of her for doing it pain medication free and very honor that she called and wanted for me to go! =) I did what I could and I just need to remember that!!! I can’t wait to see this baby girl!!
* Our friend Kevin is in town! =) We haven’t seeing him in a while so I’m very excited to get together! Dan is out with him tonite – tomorrow we are heading out of down for the day but Sunday we’ll be back for more! Kevin is the very few of Dan’s friend that had become “my” friend too, when and he first moved to Cali it was sad! - (still is). I’m glad to have a chance to see him and for the boys to once again play with uncle Kev.
* Daia turned 22, we had a great time at her party and met some very fun people
* I just realize more and more each day how much I love my 3 boys, how much they love each other, how much we are DOEOs and DOGs and that get us so close and tight as a strong and happy family. When I look back and see how much we being trough together all I can do is thank God.
I’m addicted to them! My love it’s like Dari said “Unquenchable”.
So it's raining again
I’m not sure why I’m so frustrated since I got here, I guess its because everything is being going on a diferent direction then what I expected – That is why we should have none… I got to remember this next time.
My dad is not doing very well, he is having way too many reactions from the chemo… he has so many sores in his mouth he cant eat – he is weak and barelly enjoyed the boys since we got here.
His cold freaks me out since his lungs are so debilitated…
My mom is always in function of someone or something else – she is great with the boys, always feedinthis house is g, bathing or changing them… She is also like amaid here…. serving and cleaning after people. This place is always full…
Claudia really upsets me – she thinks I have no consideration and I think the same about her. We being here for 4 days now and the house its being full everyday. I understand she wants to hang out with her boyfriend and Im totally ok with that, but all I seing so far is a very selfish person that has no consideration to anyone. Our parents – I mean forget about it…. if its not convinient for her she wont listen to them, and this is just really sad because I guess its the way she is and I never wanted to see it. She is generous – very much so. I mean she would undress herself to dress someone else – when I talk about selfish its beyond that matter…
Its not about material things – but things we do – or dont do in this case.
I really want some quiet time – let the boys have some time alone with my mom & dad – let them bond a little! Everytime my dad wants to do something with Benjamin there is always someone else involved!
Its freaking cold here – I have not seing any sun – and when we were getting ready to come here all people talked about was how hot and nice was in Brasil. Well, that is no true
Its cold and grey – and I miss my love… and I just had to vent a little…
My dad is not doing very well, he is having way too many reactions from the chemo… he has so many sores in his mouth he cant eat – he is weak and barelly enjoyed the boys since we got here.
His cold freaks me out since his lungs are so debilitated…
My mom is always in function of someone or something else – she is great with the boys, always feedinthis house is g, bathing or changing them… She is also like amaid here…. serving and cleaning after people. This place is always full…
Claudia really upsets me – she thinks I have no consideration and I think the same about her. We being here for 4 days now and the house its being full everyday. I understand she wants to hang out with her boyfriend and Im totally ok with that, but all I seing so far is a very selfish person that has no consideration to anyone. Our parents – I mean forget about it…. if its not convinient for her she wont listen to them, and this is just really sad because I guess its the way she is and I never wanted to see it. She is generous – very much so. I mean she would undress herself to dress someone else – when I talk about selfish its beyond that matter…
Its not about material things – but things we do – or dont do in this case.
I really want some quiet time – let the boys have some time alone with my mom & dad – let them bond a little! Everytime my dad wants to do something with Benjamin there is always someone else involved!
Its freaking cold here – I have not seing any sun – and when we were getting ready to come here all people talked about was how hot and nice was in Brasil. Well, that is no true
Its cold and grey – and I miss my love… and I just had to vent a little…
I screwed up really bad
We get our tickets to Brasil – we leave to Columbus Sunday and Monday to Brasil so here I was happy packing when ….
BLAAAAAHHH!!!! Benjamin’s Brazilian passport is expired!
Man – I felt like an idiot! Dan drove all night to Washington DC in order to be at the embassy 8 am and get Benji’s passport renewed. It was very nice that Mike drove with him - it made me feel more calm the fact he had someone to talk to – share the driving and make him company.
They stopped at our friend sister Marilvia’s house in Maryland for a little nap & shower… They made back around midnight.
We still don’t have the new passport – it should come in the mail within the next 24 hours. I guess I’ll keep on packing!!
It was a long long past 48 hours for all of us
BLAAAAAHHH!!!! Benjamin’s Brazilian passport is expired!
Man – I felt like an idiot! Dan drove all night to Washington DC in order to be at the embassy 8 am and get Benji’s passport renewed. It was very nice that Mike drove with him - it made me feel more calm the fact he had someone to talk to – share the driving and make him company.
They stopped at our friend sister Marilvia’s house in Maryland for a little nap & shower… They made back around midnight.
We still don’t have the new passport – it should come in the mail within the next 24 hours. I guess I’ll keep on packing!!
It was a long long past 48 hours for all of us
Me, Myself & Lilian
I’m just gonna have to accept the fact I’ll be overweight for now on!
Only 3 days not watching what I ate and I put in over 5#s – believe me or not! =(
My face is more broken out then the teenagers on my street and I’m getting full of “worry lines”.
BLAH!
I guess I need to “LET GO & HAVE FUN!”
It’s just *so* freaking hard 4 me to look in the mirror and feel like crap, ugly & very unattractive.!
T said my “insides” make me pretty - Mike T said it’s all about my “Inner Beauty”
* bullshit! *
That is ugly people talk!
I do believe in Inner Beauty -I’m just angry right now!
Angela has a great thinking and attitude about it – I wish I had just a tinny bit of it!
I have to change my attitude! It’s hard….
I talked to Dan about changing our relationship in 30 days – it’s being a week and so far we haven’t done anything, I’m loosing hope here…
Only 3 days not watching what I ate and I put in over 5#s – believe me or not! =(
My face is more broken out then the teenagers on my street and I’m getting full of “worry lines”.
BLAH!
I guess I need to “LET GO & HAVE FUN!”
It’s just *so* freaking hard 4 me to look in the mirror and feel like crap, ugly & very unattractive.!
T said my “insides” make me pretty - Mike T said it’s all about my “Inner Beauty”
* bullshit! *
That is ugly people talk!
I do believe in Inner Beauty -I’m just angry right now!
Angela has a great thinking and attitude about it – I wish I had just a tinny bit of it!
I have to change my attitude! It’s hard….
I talked to Dan about changing our relationship in 30 days – it’s being a week and so far we haven’t done anything, I’m loosing hope here…
People, oh people...
People surprise me – all the time. I can never know that to aspect. Some for the better, some for the worst…
And those you think you can count on you absolutely can’t when you most need them – and when you are out of options and solutions, someone you never thought about reaches out to you and everything works way better then what we imagined when everything was going down the drains. If that makes any sense…
And those you think you can count on you absolutely can’t when you most need them – and when you are out of options and solutions, someone you never thought about reaches out to you and everything works way better then what we imagined when everything was going down the drains. If that makes any sense…
Be Or Not To Be…
…Upset? -That is the question.
As I heard a few of my husband’s friends talking about me (Yeap! direct to me – right at my face!) Talking about how I look!!!!
They were saying how I looked when Dan and I got married. They were nice, they were very nice talking about how I’m beautiful and how I’m still “sexy” even thou overweight and how they like hiding on me. (Even thou I don’t feel sexy, I mean to other people - I don’t even try to be sexy for other man - my husband does make me feel VERY sexy!)
But let’s me honest! How can a man say that right at a woman’s face “Hey sweetie – I love you, you sexy and all but you got to loose some weight” ???
I know it’s true – I’m over weight but that did hurt my feelings!
I guess the answer is YES! TO BE UPSET! A little army of maggots! Ewww…
I still feel the F****ING things crawling around me (Just the feeling from watching them for so long)It’s F****ING 11:30 pm and Dan is still outside - in the rain dealing with the F****ING maggots! (in a little note - we were up at 6am next morning still working on it!) Can you tell how F****ING frustrated I’m and how much I hate the little F****ING bugs?GRRRRRRRRRRRRR - GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR - GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRCould you tell me of something that will work? Here is a web site that helped A LOTShttp://www.usatoday.com/life/movies/simpsons-contest.htm BOY can these things breed!!!!And I swer they were NOT there this morning! The whole thing happened maybe within the past 10 hours… (It’s very possible - I researched online!)
You would…
Today is the one-day I just didn’t do anything. I just sat all day and play with the children – I’m writing this post – I took time to get on with everyone else – called my friends, read their blogs, sent out late thank you notes and replied e-mails from weeks ago.
I found out Vinicius have a blog! How coo is that? Also another 2 friends of friends that I have met before and got back in touch with! And that was pretty cool.
I also need to start replying to my comments – right? I’ll get there guys.. I’ll! Just e-mail works much better for me but from now on I’ll answer comments right on the page.
I have soooooooooo much to blog about the trip but I need all kinds of time to do that, so I’ll sometime during the week - for a sumary: It was AWESOME!
Frances drove me nuts this past weekend – I know now that we cannot count on Dan’s family – however again I’m thankful for my friends!!!
I said something to her and she (full of guilty) understood something else. It’ll take a long time for me to want to see her again – I’m praying a lot about it – I can’t be so mad at her because I can’t express myself very good in English (and she MUST have hearing problems + English as well) but I’m just so PO!
Sorry – but she is a little off here (and most of the other times too)
God is good - I’m over it but she is crazy! If you know her you would agree with me!
In the other hand - I have had met Katia a while ago and we always talk in events – who would thing we would turn out to be good friends but I being enjoying very much the time I spent with her – sh cheers me up a lots! I need that
Despite all that I miss Tati a lots – her calls every morning – I complain about it when she is around – but I got to tell ya; we are like sisters.
I found out Vinicius have a blog! How coo is that? Also another 2 friends of friends that I have met before and got back in touch with! And that was pretty cool.
I also need to start replying to my comments – right? I’ll get there guys.. I’ll! Just e-mail works much better for me but from now on I’ll answer comments right on the page.
I have soooooooooo much to blog about the trip but I need all kinds of time to do that, so I’ll sometime during the week - for a sumary: It was AWESOME!
Frances drove me nuts this past weekend – I know now that we cannot count on Dan’s family – however again I’m thankful for my friends!!!
I said something to her and she (full of guilty) understood something else. It’ll take a long time for me to want to see her again – I’m praying a lot about it – I can’t be so mad at her because I can’t express myself very good in English (and she MUST have hearing problems + English as well) but I’m just so PO!
Sorry – but she is a little off here (and most of the other times too)
God is good - I’m over it but she is crazy! If you know her you would agree with me!
In the other hand - I have had met Katia a while ago and we always talk in events – who would thing we would turn out to be good friends but I being enjoying very much the time I spent with her – sh cheers me up a lots! I need that
Despite all that I miss Tati a lots – her calls every morning – I complain about it when she is around – but I got to tell ya; we are like sisters.
A few things from this past week…
We actually made it to the C-HOP meeting last wed. It was a blessed time, I think everyone enjoyed as much as I did (Shannon, we missed you! – next time, maybe?) I noticed this time that they have a nice shop there, great items.
I feel sad I missed 2 weeks of the 3Ms meeting at Shelly’s but there is just too much going on around here =(
The new Kroger is awesome! They have a huge organic produce section, so much bigger then any of the other stores. Nice sushi and even an olive bar, great price for organic stuff! -But a crappy service! Of course, nothing is perfect….
My finger still hurts from the elevator smashing… maybe I should look for a doctor this week.
Tati and I are trying to get involved with some sort of organization to donate gently used clothing, food and maybe time. Any suggestions?
It’s funny… but if someday Dan’s family got to go to Brasil, no matter how far they were from my parents, I know my mom and my dad would make all the effort to go meet them, even if they were hours away. My family has been here for two weeks now and Frances never even called once, to see if they made in safe. For my aunt and uncle it’s really weird to be here and not see anybody else from the family. The only one they got to meet from Dan’s family, was Mike.
In Brasil, we’re all about family. It hurts me to think that I don’t have family in Cincinnati but I feel blessed to be able to say that I have many friends who are like family to me. My friends came over to meet my family, welcome them, spend time with them, and took them out to do fun things
I feel sad I missed 2 weeks of the 3Ms meeting at Shelly’s but there is just too much going on around here =(
The new Kroger is awesome! They have a huge organic produce section, so much bigger then any of the other stores. Nice sushi and even an olive bar, great price for organic stuff! -But a crappy service! Of course, nothing is perfect….
My finger still hurts from the elevator smashing… maybe I should look for a doctor this week.
Tati and I are trying to get involved with some sort of organization to donate gently used clothing, food and maybe time. Any suggestions?
It’s funny… but if someday Dan’s family got to go to Brasil, no matter how far they were from my parents, I know my mom and my dad would make all the effort to go meet them, even if they were hours away. My family has been here for two weeks now and Frances never even called once, to see if they made in safe. For my aunt and uncle it’s really weird to be here and not see anybody else from the family. The only one they got to meet from Dan’s family, was Mike.
In Brasil, we’re all about family. It hurts me to think that I don’t have family in Cincinnati but I feel blessed to be able to say that I have many friends who are like family to me. My friends came over to meet my family, welcome them, spend time with them, and took them out to do fun things
B-day @ the Y, Pool and up-dates!
Today we went to the Y for Grace’s Birthday party with the other brazilian families… it was such a nice time - we headed to the pool after we had cupcakes! (I used rainbow chips icing - hmmmm!) Oh Priscilla!!!! Why did you tell me about this? It’s delicious, I can’t stop eating!
Benji had the best time at the pool - I felt horrible because he got a blister from his swimming shoes =(
I did breastfeed Noah in the pool area, by the door, in the parking lot - everywhere! I want to get a group of moms to sit down in front of that Sandra’s office and breastfeed their babies!! - LOL!
Dad has chemo again tomorrow… we are afraid this time around he’ll feel even more sick. Hopefuly not! Patty also is going to have surgery on Monday. She’ll be off work for 2 months!
I forgot to post about this but last week Benji had food poisining - it was horrible… He never barfs - and it was just so sad to watch him. That’s one thing that you feel pretty bad about it ’cause there’s not much you can do to make them feel better!
He also dropped a whole thing of PINK nail polish in the middle of out living room carpet… I don’t have to mentioned that it didn’t come off! I wanted to cry!
We got Benji’s custome (??) for Haloween - It’s Pablo from Backyardigans and he is afraid of it! We being practicing around the house so he’ll be used to by then…
Benji had the best time at the pool - I felt horrible because he got a blister from his swimming shoes =(
I did breastfeed Noah in the pool area, by the door, in the parking lot - everywhere! I want to get a group of moms to sit down in front of that Sandra’s office and breastfeed their babies!! - LOL!
Dad has chemo again tomorrow… we are afraid this time around he’ll feel even more sick. Hopefuly not! Patty also is going to have surgery on Monday. She’ll be off work for 2 months!
I forgot to post about this but last week Benji had food poisining - it was horrible… He never barfs - and it was just so sad to watch him. That’s one thing that you feel pretty bad about it ’cause there’s not much you can do to make them feel better!
He also dropped a whole thing of PINK nail polish in the middle of out living room carpet… I don’t have to mentioned that it didn’t come off! I wanted to cry!
We got Benji’s custome (??) for Haloween - It’s Pablo from Backyardigans and he is afraid of it! We being practicing around the house so he’ll be used to by then…
BREAST!!!! BREAST!!!! BREAST!!!
Today at the YMCA - UNBELIEVABLE!!!!
Despite the fact that strange things ALWAYS happen to me – I should expect this one to happen with me!
This morning Tati called asking if we were gonna make to the Y – Benji was having a hard morning so I told her probably not; a few minutes go by and she knocks at our door – Great! We can make it now – I got myself dressed, as well Benjamin and Tati got Noah ready – We made it!
So we are hanging out at the “blocks” room for Benji to play, another friend Marcia came by to talk with us – the baby gets hungry so I gave no thoughts to it, just got him and nursed, right there!
This woman who was there playing with her kid and had a badge from the Y on her shirt came by and did not measure her voice said “You can’t breastfeed in public, we have a nursing room where you can do it, but not here!” in front of several other parents…
No comments: I was *SHOCKED*! I didn’t even know what to say for a minute – I was just so angry! Benji was playing, did not want to stop and put shoes on to go to a nursing room, besides, YMCA it’s a “family oriented” place!
Marcia heard the whole thing and left to go to the bathroom, in the mean time Tati came in and I left Benji with her and I was heading to the main desk when Marcia is coming back with one of the managers; Amy… she came and looked at the employee who HARASSED me, yes - to me it was harassing! She gave me hundreds of apologies, and I went off on the woman at this point, I was just so angry!
Marcia of course kept herself calm, went back into the playroom and very politely told the woman about the “rules” change – after she left the manager called her into this little room where the laundry is, said something to her, I went back into the playroom to finish feeding my son – in front of everyone while Benji was playing!
Later in the morning this girl Sandra stopped by us at the hall to apologize…
Ooops, the boys are screaming but the best part of this story is still to come but I got to go see my kids - I’ll be back here later to finish it…
Despite the fact that strange things ALWAYS happen to me – I should expect this one to happen with me!
This morning Tati called asking if we were gonna make to the Y – Benji was having a hard morning so I told her probably not; a few minutes go by and she knocks at our door – Great! We can make it now – I got myself dressed, as well Benjamin and Tati got Noah ready – We made it!
So we are hanging out at the “blocks” room for Benji to play, another friend Marcia came by to talk with us – the baby gets hungry so I gave no thoughts to it, just got him and nursed, right there!
This woman who was there playing with her kid and had a badge from the Y on her shirt came by and did not measure her voice said “You can’t breastfeed in public, we have a nursing room where you can do it, but not here!” in front of several other parents…
No comments: I was *SHOCKED*! I didn’t even know what to say for a minute – I was just so angry! Benji was playing, did not want to stop and put shoes on to go to a nursing room, besides, YMCA it’s a “family oriented” place!
Marcia heard the whole thing and left to go to the bathroom, in the mean time Tati came in and I left Benji with her and I was heading to the main desk when Marcia is coming back with one of the managers; Amy… she came and looked at the employee who HARASSED me, yes - to me it was harassing! She gave me hundreds of apologies, and I went off on the woman at this point, I was just so angry!
Marcia of course kept herself calm, went back into the playroom and very politely told the woman about the “rules” change – after she left the manager called her into this little room where the laundry is, said something to her, I went back into the playroom to finish feeding my son – in front of everyone while Benji was playing!
Later in the morning this girl Sandra stopped by us at the hall to apologize…
Ooops, the boys are screaming but the best part of this story is still to come but I got to go see my kids - I’ll be back here later to finish it…
It’s funny how things can turn around very fast and all the sudden I feel like an outsider… *CRAP*
Besides that thing going on with my friends I also hate being at home – I never thought I would feel this way (and it may change after the baby is born)
I feel like Benji enjoy me being here for him but also I feel how “sick” of me he gets. I feel like crap in a way, like I’m not getting anything accomplished, housework is the crap because no one notices. I miss hearing “Well done” or “Great Job” when I’m done with a project! I miss working in projects – I miss thinking!
I feel like I have to “run” after things to do with Benjamin everyday so he (and I ) won’t get bored! And this is summer… it seems like it’ll get worst during the cold weather and I’m already freaking out over it!
As Linda said, in a few days I may be bagging to have the “Time” I have on my hands now – she is probably right, but for the time being I’m not really enjoying as I thought I would!
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The past couple of day:
Saturday was Nathan’s birthday – Benji had a blast! Played – played and played! He was exhausted! We got home and showered (he had sand all over, inside of his ears, shoes and all over his hair) and he felt a sleep right the way! That gave Dan and I a chance to talk, watch a movie and just relax for a little bit longer than usual!
We went to the zoo yesterday – Dan never gets to go so since he was home we thought it would be a good opportunity for him to go with us. He was impressed with how Happy Benji was there! They had a lot of fun together, I think Benji loved it that dad carried him and shoed him every animal (because since we got the pass I being pregnant and I don’t have the guts to walk there and old him up in every animal so he can see it) and talking about walking, we did walk about 5 hours non stopping up and down those hills… by the end of the day Benji started getting cranky (of course) and so did I. But we had a nice lunch/dinner around 5pm and just hanged out all together until bad time. It was a nice family day with lots of fun to Benji before baby brother is here!
Some random thoughts:
* I was hoping the 5 hours of walking would do me something but nothing yet! =] (That’s a not very happy smiley face)
* Today is Claudia’s birthday – Clau FELIZ ANIVERSARIO! (She made home safe)
* Blue had a baby brother, I think his name is Sprinkles but I’m not sure!
* Jessica spent last Monday with us and Benji just loved it!
* I have a check up today
* Andrea is pregnant (I’m not sure I’m supposed to know, but I also know she doesn’t read this blog) I hope she is happy, kids are a blessing and I think she is in a good age and it’ll be cool for her! It’ll change the direction of her life, I’m sure.
* I did pack my bad today – baby has no name yet!
* Luciana is coming over for lunch & that should be fun – especially for the boys…
Besides that thing going on with my friends I also hate being at home – I never thought I would feel this way (and it may change after the baby is born)
I feel like Benji enjoy me being here for him but also I feel how “sick” of me he gets. I feel like crap in a way, like I’m not getting anything accomplished, housework is the crap because no one notices. I miss hearing “Well done” or “Great Job” when I’m done with a project! I miss working in projects – I miss thinking!
I feel like I have to “run” after things to do with Benjamin everyday so he (and I ) won’t get bored! And this is summer… it seems like it’ll get worst during the cold weather and I’m already freaking out over it!
As Linda said, in a few days I may be bagging to have the “Time” I have on my hands now – she is probably right, but for the time being I’m not really enjoying as I thought I would!
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The past couple of day:
Saturday was Nathan’s birthday – Benji had a blast! Played – played and played! He was exhausted! We got home and showered (he had sand all over, inside of his ears, shoes and all over his hair) and he felt a sleep right the way! That gave Dan and I a chance to talk, watch a movie and just relax for a little bit longer than usual!
We went to the zoo yesterday – Dan never gets to go so since he was home we thought it would be a good opportunity for him to go with us. He was impressed with how Happy Benji was there! They had a lot of fun together, I think Benji loved it that dad carried him and shoed him every animal (because since we got the pass I being pregnant and I don’t have the guts to walk there and old him up in every animal so he can see it) and talking about walking, we did walk about 5 hours non stopping up and down those hills… by the end of the day Benji started getting cranky (of course) and so did I. But we had a nice lunch/dinner around 5pm and just hanged out all together until bad time. It was a nice family day with lots of fun to Benji before baby brother is here!
Some random thoughts:
* I was hoping the 5 hours of walking would do me something but nothing yet! =] (That’s a not very happy smiley face)
* Today is Claudia’s birthday – Clau FELIZ ANIVERSARIO! (She made home safe)
* Blue had a baby brother, I think his name is Sprinkles but I’m not sure!
* Jessica spent last Monday with us and Benji just loved it!
* I have a check up today
* Andrea is pregnant (I’m not sure I’m supposed to know, but I also know she doesn’t read this blog) I hope she is happy, kids are a blessing and I think she is in a good age and it’ll be cool for her! It’ll change the direction of her life, I’m sure.
* I did pack my bad today – baby has no name yet!
* Luciana is coming over for lunch & that should be fun – especially for the boys…
My world is just about to fall apart…
Today I found out that my dad lost his job. My mom new about this since last Friday but never told me “not to make me nervous”
After looking for something for a long long time he got a very cool opportunity as a supervisor, doing what he did 25 years of his life… August 1st he completed his 3rd month (experience time kind of thing) and he got dismissed because he wasn’t able to keep up. He was ok with it, it really was a lot of work to do, a lot of traveling and he was stressed out but also now there’s only 1 income again (my mom’s). Besides the company gave him a car and a cell phone that the took it away… (of course) I mean - 3 mos. it’s enough to get you “comfortable” with this kind of stuff so I’m sure it’ll be a little hard on him…
Than I thought “Oh, it’s ok, he’ll get by – thank God he is healthy strong man and have a very good sense of humor, this won’t affect him”
Like is that wasn’t bad news enough he had some tests done today because of his consistent heartburn and guess what? He needs colon surgery! ASAP!!!
They haven’t said why and how bad it’s, he’ll find this out tomorrow (hopefully – that’s what he said) but all I can think of is cancer. How can I F***ing know if there isn’t more to it but they are just not telling me because they don’t want to make me worried!
I can’t freaking get into a plan, I’m 38 weeks pregnant which is *not* a good thing because it makes me mad for being pregnant and makes mad at the baby who (poor little thing) doesn’t have anything to do with it!
I’m so sad, so nervous. I just can’t stop crying for over 2 hours, I don’t want to see anyone, I don’t want to talk to anyone… I can’t even control myself. I have being so inpatient. Poor Benji, Dan & Claudia. I was already feeling like crap, feeling I haven’t done a good job as a mom for the past 3 days, and my marriage that was so awesome had broken down in the past week because of my F***ing self & now with all these bad news…
What am I still doing in the freaking place? Why can’t I be close to them now? Why I wasn’t there earlier?
How could I prevent my parents to spend time with my son? Watch him grow!
I’m so mad – I’m so angry. Very angry!
I know I won’t be able to sleep tonight, and it doesn’t matter what anyone says. It doesn’t help – It doesn’t make me feel any better. I’m angry. Every minute more and more angry and I can’t control it.
There’s just so much going thru my head right now…
After looking for something for a long long time he got a very cool opportunity as a supervisor, doing what he did 25 years of his life… August 1st he completed his 3rd month (experience time kind of thing) and he got dismissed because he wasn’t able to keep up. He was ok with it, it really was a lot of work to do, a lot of traveling and he was stressed out but also now there’s only 1 income again (my mom’s). Besides the company gave him a car and a cell phone that the took it away… (of course) I mean - 3 mos. it’s enough to get you “comfortable” with this kind of stuff so I’m sure it’ll be a little hard on him…
Than I thought “Oh, it’s ok, he’ll get by – thank God he is healthy strong man and have a very good sense of humor, this won’t affect him”
Like is that wasn’t bad news enough he had some tests done today because of his consistent heartburn and guess what? He needs colon surgery! ASAP!!!
They haven’t said why and how bad it’s, he’ll find this out tomorrow (hopefully – that’s what he said) but all I can think of is cancer. How can I F***ing know if there isn’t more to it but they are just not telling me because they don’t want to make me worried!
I can’t freaking get into a plan, I’m 38 weeks pregnant which is *not* a good thing because it makes me mad for being pregnant and makes mad at the baby who (poor little thing) doesn’t have anything to do with it!
I’m so sad, so nervous. I just can’t stop crying for over 2 hours, I don’t want to see anyone, I don’t want to talk to anyone… I can’t even control myself. I have being so inpatient. Poor Benji, Dan & Claudia. I was already feeling like crap, feeling I haven’t done a good job as a mom for the past 3 days, and my marriage that was so awesome had broken down in the past week because of my F***ing self & now with all these bad news…
What am I still doing in the freaking place? Why can’t I be close to them now? Why I wasn’t there earlier?
How could I prevent my parents to spend time with my son? Watch him grow!
I’m so mad – I’m so angry. Very angry!
I know I won’t be able to sleep tonight, and it doesn’t matter what anyone says. It doesn’t help – It doesn’t make me feel any better. I’m angry. Every minute more and more angry and I can’t control it.
There’s just so much going thru my head right now…
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