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I miss my dad today!... so much...
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We are a happy family
As I sit to write this post Noah is dancing, jumping in the living room @ the sound of the Fresh Beat Band. Both boys have so much energy - which IS a good thing, no doubt a blessing but man! That is a LOT of energy and I wish I could just keep up with them! We have so much fun together!
This weekend we had some great quality family time. Besides a little something here and there I'm just so happy and satisfied with life! =)
The boys - I mean - cracking me up 24/7!!! They are such good buddies and playing together all the time and really working hard on being nice (Weeellll - Ben is! I can't say the same thing about Noah)
Here is some funny ones from Noah this week:
1. Noah is sitting here right next to me - Benjamin falls down and Noah says:
"Are you ok son?"
Me: BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
A day later...
Noah was playing w/ balls, pretending they were little guys...
He had one in each hand, pretending they were walking around on the table & talking to each other, I wasn't really paying much attention on what the conversation was all about until I heard he say:
"Don't worry, just relax and keep walking and enjoy my company baby" ?!??!!?
Me: BWAHAHAHAHAHA again! LOL
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We laugh so hard until we cry everyday! If its not one thing it's another!!! LOL
Our family is just a happy family!!!
but on another note I must say that I got some major mental problems that I need to take care of it!
Why is it on the happiest days that I miss my dad the most?
I mean - I miss him no matter what - everyday I think about him, everyday I miss him and I wish I could call him and hear his voice. But days that I'm happy and good things happen - you would figure I would be distracted or so happy I would not think about him but those are the days... those are the days that I hurt the most.... The days the pain is unbearable...
This weekend we had some great quality family time. Besides a little something here and there I'm just so happy and satisfied with life! =)
The boys - I mean - cracking me up 24/7!!! They are such good buddies and playing together all the time and really working hard on being nice (Weeellll - Ben is! I can't say the same thing about Noah)
Here is some funny ones from Noah this week:
1. Noah is sitting here right next to me - Benjamin falls down and Noah says:
"Are you ok son?"
Me: BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
A day later...
Noah was playing w/ balls, pretending they were little guys...
He had one in each hand, pretending they were walking around on the table & talking to each other, I wasn't really paying much attention on what the conversation was all about until I heard he say:
"Don't worry, just relax and keep walking and enjoy my company baby" ?!??!!?
Me: BWAHAHAHAHAHA again! LOL
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We laugh so hard until we cry everyday! If its not one thing it's another!!! LOL
Our family is just a happy family!!!
but on another note I must say that I got some major mental problems that I need to take care of it!
Why is it on the happiest days that I miss my dad the most?
I mean - I miss him no matter what - everyday I think about him, everyday I miss him and I wish I could call him and hear his voice. But days that I'm happy and good things happen - you would figure I would be distracted or so happy I would not think about him but those are the days... those are the days that I hurt the most.... The days the pain is unbearable...
A mother's worst fear...
Its to have your children in danger - sick or anything that may hurt them.
If I would ask you what is a mother's biggest fears I'm sure you could come up with a neverending list; and we know how to prevent many of them to happen, and we pray for God to protect our little ones.
But what we should have fear of is the things we cannot control and the things we can't think of - there for you can't prevent!
And of course for me that happens more often then not and is just that one things that happens in the movies and you don't think it can ever happen for real - well... yes those are the ones that happen to me!
We have one of our sofas against a window - there is blinds and curtains on there.
The boys jump in the couch - everyday! Every single day - and that is the only couch they are allowed to jump on... and often they will flio into the back of the couch and scoot over from behind...
So this morning - right under my nose - next to me - Noah was jumping - like he always do getting out from the back and running back to do it all over again when - BLAH!
The cords on the blindes got stuck on his neck! At first I didn't realized he was serious and when I realized I he was chocking.
I helped him take the cords out - and sat down to sink in what had just happened and get my legs to stop shaking. I can just thank God for watching over him and protecting him at that time!
*sign*
Right after it happened
Tonite, during bath time - not much better!
Being so lucky the way I'm someone just may call child services on me thinking I was trying to hurt my son! =oP
It came before I could see it coming
It never crossed my mind this day would come!
Often people guess my age wrong - of course they think I'm older then I'm and not just a year or more - like they guess me to be Dan's (DH) ages - 35.
But I'm not - I'm only 28 and being told that I'm older never bothered me. FOR REAL! Really
I could see other people around me and see them getting older - but still I never saw it in me! I knew it would come eventually...
People talk about how they are bothered by turning 30 and here I'm getting close to it and still don't get bothered by it (Or I should say I didn't until...)
Well - so starting from the beginning, when IW as in 3rd grade I started having a lot of headaches, my mom took me to the eye Dr. and yes - farsighted!
Each year after that until closer to my 20s my eyes got worst and worst and today without my glasses I can't see much! So I started wearing contacts and absolutely hates wearing glasses over the year I had many kinds - blue frame, red frame, round and square - oval and metal...
you name it - every year I got a new pair and always hated them. Used contacts as much as I could until....
....a couple of weeks ago my left eye started hurting really bad when I got contacts on, even very new ones still would hurt so the Eye Dr. prescribed drops and 2 weeks without contacts.
So I ordered myself new glasses, a cheap deal I found online just to hold me over for a couple of weeks and it's being months... I being wearing my glasses since!
Until yesterday, Benjamin had a fieldtrip with school and I didn't want to wear my glasses because it was raining... so I got my contacts on and when I look at the mirror OH MY DEAR SHOES!!!
I look so freaking old! I can see all my wrinkles - my face is so... so... so ... down! =oP Swollen!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm getting SO OLD!!!
Where are my glasses??? for the first time in my life I wanted my glasses back on! They hide my face! LOL
Often people guess my age wrong - of course they think I'm older then I'm and not just a year or more - like they guess me to be Dan's (DH) ages - 35.
But I'm not - I'm only 28 and being told that I'm older never bothered me. FOR REAL! Really
I could see other people around me and see them getting older - but still I never saw it in me! I knew it would come eventually...
People talk about how they are bothered by turning 30 and here I'm getting close to it and still don't get bothered by it (Or I should say I didn't until...)
Well - so starting from the beginning, when IW as in 3rd grade I started having a lot of headaches, my mom took me to the eye Dr. and yes - farsighted!
Each year after that until closer to my 20s my eyes got worst and worst and today without my glasses I can't see much! So I started wearing contacts and absolutely hates wearing glasses over the year I had many kinds - blue frame, red frame, round and square - oval and metal...
you name it - every year I got a new pair and always hated them. Used contacts as much as I could until....
....a couple of weeks ago my left eye started hurting really bad when I got contacts on, even very new ones still would hurt so the Eye Dr. prescribed drops and 2 weeks without contacts.
So I ordered myself new glasses, a cheap deal I found online just to hold me over for a couple of weeks and it's being months... I being wearing my glasses since!
Until yesterday, Benjamin had a fieldtrip with school and I didn't want to wear my glasses because it was raining... so I got my contacts on and when I look at the mirror OH MY DEAR SHOES!!!
I look so freaking old! I can see all my wrinkles - my face is so... so... so ... down! =oP Swollen!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm getting SO OLD!!!
Where are my glasses??? for the first time in my life I wanted my glasses back on! They hide my face! LOL
My dad
My dad passed away last Friday May 2.
The pain is awful. I'm still learning how to cope with it...
I feel like that little girl on the movie "My girl" (Meu primeiro amor - in Portuguese) that looses her best friend.
I feel the bees.... =(
aweful - aweful
R.I.P. da - know you are loved!
The pain is awful. I'm still learning how to cope with it...
I feel like that little girl on the movie "My girl" (Meu primeiro amor - in Portuguese) that looses her best friend.
I feel the bees.... =(
aweful - aweful
R.I.P. da - know you are loved!
mistaking
So – it’s funny the power of your words – this week I told my friend D that I wished I had a disease I saw on House that you tell people just whatever comes to your mind – and I so regret it now, as the best day I had last week I ruined by loosing a friend. l used the most mean words I could possibly use because I was really mad she didn’t do something I asked her to the way I expected before really finding out the reason why.
Not that the words I used shows what I really feel about her – I was just trying to hurt her – really – poor and straight out mean because I was angry. Of course I apologized but she still doesn’t want to be friends. I’m sure I would be feeling the same way. I’m trying so hard not to be judgmental 100% of the time with everyone and every situation (even knowing that it’s human’s nature) And I’m sure if I was on her shoes I probably would be VERY pissed off… however I can’t be mad at someone for too long – it would kill me inside. I’m ok with it. I asked for forgiveness and she choose not to be friends but God comforted my heart and made me in peace that I’m human and I make mistakes like the one that morning – a great morning when of no other reason I absolutely snapped. Now its look forward and work hard on patience and wisdom not do EVER do things without thinking. And waiting for another 2 new friends I’ll meet – I’m sure! Cause God never close a door without opening a window!
Not that the words I used shows what I really feel about her – I was just trying to hurt her – really – poor and straight out mean because I was angry. Of course I apologized but she still doesn’t want to be friends. I’m sure I would be feeling the same way. I’m trying so hard not to be judgmental 100% of the time with everyone and every situation (even knowing that it’s human’s nature) And I’m sure if I was on her shoes I probably would be VERY pissed off… however I can’t be mad at someone for too long – it would kill me inside. I’m ok with it. I asked for forgiveness and she choose not to be friends but God comforted my heart and made me in peace that I’m human and I make mistakes like the one that morning – a great morning when of no other reason I absolutely snapped. Now its look forward and work hard on patience and wisdom not do EVER do things without thinking. And waiting for another 2 new friends I’ll meet – I’m sure! Cause God never close a door without opening a window!
Two of a mother’s biggest fear
[This is an old post I wrote when it happened - two weeks ago and never had a chance to post, so I'm doing it today]
I bet I’m not the only mom who has fears like kids getting hurt with a rope, or on the tube – or loosing a child on a store, develop a rare disease and many others. Yes - There are quite a few on a list of a mother’s biggest fears.
I just got hit by two of them – that until last week were not on my list. And it was scary.
1. I was in the kitchen helping my Grandma with dinner when I heard Noah was shocking. I ran back to the living room and Noah was throwing up. Well – knowing our family you may know that barf one of the most common things that happens in our household, so I didn’t worry much about it – just grabbed Noah from behind to move him to the tile floor (cause he was throwing up at the couch and the tile it’s easier to clean)
And I think by doing that was when I actually helped him cause he spitted out a coin. A “real”, Brazilian money the size of a dime. That coin flew half way across the living room and Noah opened a big smile!
I breathed again too!
2. Well – I never care about little things laying around because the boys were never into putting things on their mouths. I have never ever seen them to such a think.
After a long time working on “ trying” to understand what happened finally Noah explained. My mom gave the boys an M&M container. Benji ate all of his and used the container as a “big bank” and put on his coins. Noah still had some on his. They would just open the container and drop the M&M right into their mouths – so Noah grabbed the wrong container and ta da! That is what happened!
And if that wasn’t enough for one week – a day later we are helping my sister to cut little paw prints for a school project she was putting together for her students. Benji had one of those kid’s scissors, plastics with a round edge – Noah tried to get it from him and when Benjamin was “reacting” he poked Noah in the face – that little kiddy scissor did a 2 inches long cut on Noah’s cheek, right under his left eye. It was so much blood I couldn’t believe it. It was so superficial but it must have got some little vase cause the blood was just coming out strong.
I tried taking pictures of his cut to post here but after it stopped bleeding you couldn’t even see anything. It looked like a paper cut. (And since this is an old picture – you probably notice Noah is ok in his latest pictures)
When you least expect – what you least expect. Scary sometimes!
I bet I’m not the only mom who has fears like kids getting hurt with a rope, or on the tube – or loosing a child on a store, develop a rare disease and many others. Yes - There are quite a few on a list of a mother’s biggest fears.
I just got hit by two of them – that until last week were not on my list. And it was scary.
1. I was in the kitchen helping my Grandma with dinner when I heard Noah was shocking. I ran back to the living room and Noah was throwing up. Well – knowing our family you may know that barf one of the most common things that happens in our household, so I didn’t worry much about it – just grabbed Noah from behind to move him to the tile floor (cause he was throwing up at the couch and the tile it’s easier to clean)
And I think by doing that was when I actually helped him cause he spitted out a coin. A “real”, Brazilian money the size of a dime. That coin flew half way across the living room and Noah opened a big smile!
I breathed again too!
2. Well – I never care about little things laying around because the boys were never into putting things on their mouths. I have never ever seen them to such a think.
After a long time working on “ trying” to understand what happened finally Noah explained. My mom gave the boys an M&M container. Benji ate all of his and used the container as a “big bank” and put on his coins. Noah still had some on his. They would just open the container and drop the M&M right into their mouths – so Noah grabbed the wrong container and ta da! That is what happened!
And if that wasn’t enough for one week – a day later we are helping my sister to cut little paw prints for a school project she was putting together for her students. Benji had one of those kid’s scissors, plastics with a round edge – Noah tried to get it from him and when Benjamin was “reacting” he poked Noah in the face – that little kiddy scissor did a 2 inches long cut on Noah’s cheek, right under his left eye. It was so much blood I couldn’t believe it. It was so superficial but it must have got some little vase cause the blood was just coming out strong.
I tried taking pictures of his cut to post here but after it stopped bleeding you couldn’t even see anything. It looked like a paper cut. (And since this is an old picture – you probably notice Noah is ok in his latest pictures)
When you least expect – what you least expect. Scary sometimes!
Waiting for a miracle and another one happened...
So, from the beginning…
You may have read that 2.5 yrs ago when I was about to have Noah my dad was diagnosed with Colon cancer. He had 20 inches of his colon removed right the way and started chemo. Not too long after that they detected spots on his liver. The day of his surgery for that the Drs couldn’t find anything. We got our first miracle! =)
A year goes by and his lungs had a few spots – little but lots of them. The problem was that this made this cancer not operable this time. So lots and lots of chemo – changed medication, this time his hair fell off – he had different side effects. After 6 months of chemo his one big spot on the lung had shrunk however he had quite a few new little ones.
When we got in Brasil last December my dad was complaining of back pain, but since he works caring boxes up and down all day long we thought that this was the reason. He went to a back Dr. who prescribed physical therapy. He good and bad days… until last week, on Sunday it was bad – that night he never slept, around 5 am we took him to the E.R. where he had shots of morphine but still felt lots of pain.
He did a ton of test and since the pain never stopped. On Wednesday he took all test results he had to his oncologist, no appointment – just showed up there and waited until the guy saw him, and from his office he sent dad straight to the hospital, to wait for surgery.
We are waiting on a specialist – cause his Dr. that did his colon surgery can’t do any neurosurgery, so we are waiting on this new Doc. We being waiting since Wednesday; and I guess this new doc is the very best out there.
I don’t believe anything will happen until Monday or Tuesday. In the mean time dad is still at the hospital, either in a lot of pain or VERY medicated.
We go see him every day, the boys have being there, my grandma – his mom came from another state and we are here, praying and waiting.
I also talked to my grandpa for the first time ever - for me this was a miracle alone – (my dad's dad) My grandpa left my grandma when my dad was only 2 and they only got together maybe a half dozen times their whole life. This has being an amazing change for all of us. I never met Grandpa Jose but we talked on the phone twice yesterday.
It's being VERY important to my dad to reconect after 50 something years.
There are quite a load of mixed feelings. Sad for dad, happy for grandpa – happy to see dad without any pain but worried about how groggy he is…
My mom is a pile of worry – her bp is going crazy and I’ll be leaving back to Cincinnati in 3 days... and for sure is not going to be easy.
We are waiting on a miracle.
You may have read that 2.5 yrs ago when I was about to have Noah my dad was diagnosed with Colon cancer. He had 20 inches of his colon removed right the way and started chemo. Not too long after that they detected spots on his liver. The day of his surgery for that the Drs couldn’t find anything. We got our first miracle! =)
A year goes by and his lungs had a few spots – little but lots of them. The problem was that this made this cancer not operable this time. So lots and lots of chemo – changed medication, this time his hair fell off – he had different side effects. After 6 months of chemo his one big spot on the lung had shrunk however he had quite a few new little ones.
When we got in Brasil last December my dad was complaining of back pain, but since he works caring boxes up and down all day long we thought that this was the reason. He went to a back Dr. who prescribed physical therapy. He good and bad days… until last week, on Sunday it was bad – that night he never slept, around 5 am we took him to the E.R. where he had shots of morphine but still felt lots of pain.
He did a ton of test and since the pain never stopped. On Wednesday he took all test results he had to his oncologist, no appointment – just showed up there and waited until the guy saw him, and from his office he sent dad straight to the hospital, to wait for surgery.
We are waiting on a specialist – cause his Dr. that did his colon surgery can’t do any neurosurgery, so we are waiting on this new Doc. We being waiting since Wednesday; and I guess this new doc is the very best out there.
I don’t believe anything will happen until Monday or Tuesday. In the mean time dad is still at the hospital, either in a lot of pain or VERY medicated.
We go see him every day, the boys have being there, my grandma – his mom came from another state and we are here, praying and waiting.
I also talked to my grandpa for the first time ever - for me this was a miracle alone – (my dad's dad) My grandpa left my grandma when my dad was only 2 and they only got together maybe a half dozen times their whole life. This has being an amazing change for all of us. I never met Grandpa Jose but we talked on the phone twice yesterday.
It's being VERY important to my dad to reconect after 50 something years.
There are quite a load of mixed feelings. Sad for dad, happy for grandpa – happy to see dad without any pain but worried about how groggy he is…
My mom is a pile of worry – her bp is going crazy and I’ll be leaving back to Cincinnati in 3 days... and for sure is not going to be easy.
We are waiting on a miracle.
It’s not easy!
Mara’s dad passed away last week -so yesterday we went to Columbus to cry with our friend - Not just a visit it was healing all over the place. God filled her house with His angels; we had a blessed time with happiness, peace, answers to our questions, reconciliation and lots of love.
It’s had being almost 2 years since I saw/talked to her. So it was great. Half away of our visit we hear this beautiful music coming from the outside, we go check it was Daleth, Connie & Ze + another 2 families came to visit too. What a blessed time. The 2 families I met there were so much fun! =)
We all had a bunch of good laughs! Hopefully it was good to Mara too (Looked like it was!)
I can’t imagine how hard it is to loose a loving one. But as the brother said during the prayer – he was ready – he even said good bye to his animals! :~(
I can’t imagine how hard it is to loose a loving one. But as the brother said during the prayer – he was ready – he even said good bye to his animals! :~(
I was so “in heaven” that my 2-hour drive back home felt like a 15 minutes. The boys were so awesome and this will be just a trip to remember…
Naked w/ boots, blue IC & my colegas! lol
Last Saturday night Dan, me & the kids went to KI. Who would think we would of have such a nice time? Very few people; a much cooler weather, we had a good time & Dang!!! That blue ice cream YUMMM…
Since then I’m craving that IC…
These week we enjoyed Dad & Grandpa all day long, then this afternoon while they hanged out with Mike P. we went to KI for an hour and so. After we headed to Simone’s house for a nice nice time! We had a “dinner” lunchoun, all the kids had the best time! Noah didn’t even care where I was, he wanted to play play play – there was so much toys there so both of my kids had a blast! =) Then I got home and
“Ahhhhh was at KI and didn’t get the Blue IC!”
My dear, how could I have done that???? Anyways…
My “Colegas” lol -It was a nice time today uh? We GOT to do it again! I loved our time scrapbooking last week but today was *very* good! =)
I have a ton of pictures to post, if I ever find the time – You’ll see them here…
Funny one:
- Benji really enjoys the song “Boots” from Laurie Berkner – and I just got him a pair of “frog” boots for $3.50!!!
We are also potty training – and for that to go easier on us I’ll take his diaper off during the day when it’s just him and I. So theirs is Benji – running in circles – stomping around as the song says – naked wearing his frog boots! =)
*Tomorrow we’ll take Benji to the Bengals game – since it’s a pre season and the weather is nice! I think he is going to love it! =)
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Please pray…
My dad has 5 spots (cancer) on his longs - He’ll start chemo again here soon. =(
Since then I’m craving that IC…
These week we enjoyed Dad & Grandpa all day long, then this afternoon while they hanged out with Mike P. we went to KI for an hour and so. After we headed to Simone’s house for a nice nice time! We had a “dinner” lunchoun, all the kids had the best time! Noah didn’t even care where I was, he wanted to play play play – there was so much toys there so both of my kids had a blast! =) Then I got home and
“Ahhhhh was at KI and didn’t get the Blue IC!”
My dear, how could I have done that???? Anyways…
My “Colegas” lol -It was a nice time today uh? We GOT to do it again! I loved our time scrapbooking last week but today was *very* good! =)
I have a ton of pictures to post, if I ever find the time – You’ll see them here…
Funny one:
- Benji really enjoys the song “Boots” from Laurie Berkner – and I just got him a pair of “frog” boots for $3.50!!!
We are also potty training – and for that to go easier on us I’ll take his diaper off during the day when it’s just him and I. So theirs is Benji – running in circles – stomping around as the song says – naked wearing his frog boots! =)
*Tomorrow we’ll take Benji to the Bengals game – since it’s a pre season and the weather is nice! I think he is going to love it! =)
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Please pray…
My dad has 5 spots (cancer) on his longs - He’ll start chemo again here soon. =(
Finally here!!!! Tonite & Tomorrow will be busy… some sad news…
Our season tickets came in the mail today!!! (Dan has being checking the mail box for 9 days now…)
They are so good looking - all about old times! =)
Now heading to the door to meet the Gausmann at KI for a fun family night! Sure there’ll be lots to blog tomorrow! =)
In another note: Tomorrow will be the funeral for GrandMae, at age 95 she passed away last Friday =(
RIP Greatgradma!! You will be missed! Wise woman - so much wisdom she had to pass on…
They are so good looking - all about old times! =)
Now heading to the door to meet the Gausmann at KI for a fun family night! Sure there’ll be lots to blog tomorrow! =)
In another note: Tomorrow will be the funeral for GrandMae, at age 95 she passed away last Friday =(
RIP Greatgradma!! You will be missed! Wise woman - so much wisdom she had to pass on…
I’m very sad *tears*
Isaac spent the night over last night again - I think it’s like his 3rd or 4th time and he and Benji do it very well. But defenetely that’s NOT why I’m sad…
They are sleeping upstairs while I sit here in this quiet room and all I can here is the storm (NICE!) outside and all I can think it’ how much I’ll miss this place…
Yeap! Our house is going on the market and I’m very upset.
I love this neighborhood - I love our neighboors and the friends we made here! Many in just these 3 years became like family to us! I love our kitchen, our deck, Everything about this place! Benji runs around - he knows all the kid’s houses, where is Logan, Brailon, Isabella, Nathan, Calvin, Audry…
Ahh this is going to be so hard for me! -For all of us! I really think it’ll be VERY hard to find such a nice street like the one we are now… but if this is what will take for me to be home with the boys - we’ll do!
=] My yellow smile
They are sleeping upstairs while I sit here in this quiet room and all I can here is the storm (NICE!) outside and all I can think it’ how much I’ll miss this place…
Yeap! Our house is going on the market and I’m very upset.
I love this neighborhood - I love our neighboors and the friends we made here! Many in just these 3 years became like family to us! I love our kitchen, our deck, Everything about this place! Benji runs around - he knows all the kid’s houses, where is Logan, Brailon, Isabella, Nathan, Calvin, Audry…
Ahh this is going to be so hard for me! -For all of us! I really think it’ll be VERY hard to find such a nice street like the one we are now… but if this is what will take for me to be home with the boys - we’ll do!
=] My yellow smile
Lots of sad things
My dad ad chemo today and he’s not feeling very good (Later we found out it was because his permanent catheter was clogged – now it sort of resolved)
Someone racked on Claudia’s car – all thou we have to thank God she is ok, the car was parked and she was outside of it because she could of being hurt! But still now she has to deal with fixing it and lost the value blah, blah, blah! =(
I guess Carrie is not doing very well – she has the flu! (Get well soon Carrie!)
I’m making a list of how many words and how mane sentences Benjamin speaks and I was quite surprised! I’m still adding words to it as the day goes bye, when I listen to him but so far we got:
Words: 79 – I good portion of it only Dan and I understand – maybe about 40 of them
Sentences: 14
Noah is smiling often – especially when he sees Benji around! So exciting! He is getting very strong too. Enjoying the Mei Tai a lots too… as long as he is around people he is happy!
Interesting:
Have you noiced that most of my posts are blue? I guess I really like blue! In English you say “I’m blue” meaning sad - Funny because in portuguese when you want to say things are GREAT you say: Everything is BLUE! =)))
Someone racked on Claudia’s car – all thou we have to thank God she is ok, the car was parked and she was outside of it because she could of being hurt! But still now she has to deal with fixing it and lost the value blah, blah, blah! =(
I guess Carrie is not doing very well – she has the flu! (Get well soon Carrie!)
I’m making a list of how many words and how mane sentences Benjamin speaks and I was quite surprised! I’m still adding words to it as the day goes bye, when I listen to him but so far we got:
Words: 79 – I good portion of it only Dan and I understand – maybe about 40 of them
Sentences: 14
Noah is smiling often – especially when he sees Benji around! So exciting! He is getting very strong too. Enjoying the Mei Tai a lots too… as long as he is around people he is happy!
Interesting:
Have you noiced that most of my posts are blue? I guess I really like blue! In English you say “I’m blue” meaning sad - Funny because in portuguese when you want to say things are GREAT you say: Everything is BLUE! =)))
My brown eyes cried
…and they will cry even more as Claudia leaves tomorrow.
Talked to dad for a long while today… still feels pretty crap but at least we know more about it, I even got to smile and laugh some throughout the day Thursday.
He’ll need surgery for sure. I just want to move back there.
It was so amazing to feel how some of my friends are connected to me. Thanks Shannon for all the support, I haven’t answered but I got your awesome e-mail. Also another 2 people who doesn’t have access to this blog and are very special to me called (Dani & Beth) out o the blue to see how I was because they felt like there was something wrong…
I may even get to talk to Marcao (I saw you called – sorry missed it! Call back, please!)
-Thanks people. With the thoughts of all this getting worst it makes me feel a whole lot stronger knowing that I have you guys!
It’s surprising how not always comes from the same people the support you need/ want or expect. I’m just really happy I got it.
I TOTALLY have a brake down yesterday – out of control!
It’s way past 1AM and I have NO sign of being able to sleep and rest.
We ended up going to Linda’s house and going to the pool – it was such a perfect “cold” water… Ava was there; she is just getting too cute!!!
We also went to visit Julie’s new baby – What a gorgeous baby! –Welcome Alexa! =)
Benji’s new words:
“Touch down”
And my favorite of the week: “Outside” (Am I in trouble or what? – Soon it will be “Mom what are we doing today? And/or I’m bored!) OMG…
Tried hard to be a better mom today. I got to do even better tomorrow
Talked to dad for a long while today… still feels pretty crap but at least we know more about it, I even got to smile and laugh some throughout the day Thursday.
He’ll need surgery for sure. I just want to move back there.
It was so amazing to feel how some of my friends are connected to me. Thanks Shannon for all the support, I haven’t answered but I got your awesome e-mail. Also another 2 people who doesn’t have access to this blog and are very special to me called (Dani & Beth) out o the blue to see how I was because they felt like there was something wrong…
I may even get to talk to Marcao (I saw you called – sorry missed it! Call back, please!)
-Thanks people. With the thoughts of all this getting worst it makes me feel a whole lot stronger knowing that I have you guys!
It’s surprising how not always comes from the same people the support you need/ want or expect. I’m just really happy I got it.
I TOTALLY have a brake down yesterday – out of control!
It’s way past 1AM and I have NO sign of being able to sleep and rest.
We ended up going to Linda’s house and going to the pool – it was such a perfect “cold” water… Ava was there; she is just getting too cute!!!
We also went to visit Julie’s new baby – What a gorgeous baby! –Welcome Alexa! =)
Benji’s new words:
“Touch down”
And my favorite of the week: “Outside” (Am I in trouble or what? – Soon it will be “Mom what are we doing today? And/or I’m bored!) OMG…
Tried hard to be a better mom today. I got to do even better tomorrow
My world is just about to fall apart…
Today I found out that my dad lost his job. My mom new about this since last Friday but never told me “not to make me nervous”
After looking for something for a long long time he got a very cool opportunity as a supervisor, doing what he did 25 years of his life… August 1st he completed his 3rd month (experience time kind of thing) and he got dismissed because he wasn’t able to keep up. He was ok with it, it really was a lot of work to do, a lot of traveling and he was stressed out but also now there’s only 1 income again (my mom’s). Besides the company gave him a car and a cell phone that the took it away… (of course) I mean - 3 mos. it’s enough to get you “comfortable” with this kind of stuff so I’m sure it’ll be a little hard on him…
Than I thought “Oh, it’s ok, he’ll get by – thank God he is healthy strong man and have a very good sense of humor, this won’t affect him”
Like is that wasn’t bad news enough he had some tests done today because of his consistent heartburn and guess what? He needs colon surgery! ASAP!!!
They haven’t said why and how bad it’s, he’ll find this out tomorrow (hopefully – that’s what he said) but all I can think of is cancer. How can I F***ing know if there isn’t more to it but they are just not telling me because they don’t want to make me worried!
I can’t freaking get into a plan, I’m 38 weeks pregnant which is *not* a good thing because it makes me mad for being pregnant and makes mad at the baby who (poor little thing) doesn’t have anything to do with it!
I’m so sad, so nervous. I just can’t stop crying for over 2 hours, I don’t want to see anyone, I don’t want to talk to anyone… I can’t even control myself. I have being so inpatient. Poor Benji, Dan & Claudia. I was already feeling like crap, feeling I haven’t done a good job as a mom for the past 3 days, and my marriage that was so awesome had broken down in the past week because of my F***ing self & now with all these bad news…
What am I still doing in the freaking place? Why can’t I be close to them now? Why I wasn’t there earlier?
How could I prevent my parents to spend time with my son? Watch him grow!
I’m so mad – I’m so angry. Very angry!
I know I won’t be able to sleep tonight, and it doesn’t matter what anyone says. It doesn’t help – It doesn’t make me feel any better. I’m angry. Every minute more and more angry and I can’t control it.
There’s just so much going thru my head right now…
After looking for something for a long long time he got a very cool opportunity as a supervisor, doing what he did 25 years of his life… August 1st he completed his 3rd month (experience time kind of thing) and he got dismissed because he wasn’t able to keep up. He was ok with it, it really was a lot of work to do, a lot of traveling and he was stressed out but also now there’s only 1 income again (my mom’s). Besides the company gave him a car and a cell phone that the took it away… (of course) I mean - 3 mos. it’s enough to get you “comfortable” with this kind of stuff so I’m sure it’ll be a little hard on him…
Than I thought “Oh, it’s ok, he’ll get by – thank God he is healthy strong man and have a very good sense of humor, this won’t affect him”
Like is that wasn’t bad news enough he had some tests done today because of his consistent heartburn and guess what? He needs colon surgery! ASAP!!!
They haven’t said why and how bad it’s, he’ll find this out tomorrow (hopefully – that’s what he said) but all I can think of is cancer. How can I F***ing know if there isn’t more to it but they are just not telling me because they don’t want to make me worried!
I can’t freaking get into a plan, I’m 38 weeks pregnant which is *not* a good thing because it makes me mad for being pregnant and makes mad at the baby who (poor little thing) doesn’t have anything to do with it!
I’m so sad, so nervous. I just can’t stop crying for over 2 hours, I don’t want to see anyone, I don’t want to talk to anyone… I can’t even control myself. I have being so inpatient. Poor Benji, Dan & Claudia. I was already feeling like crap, feeling I haven’t done a good job as a mom for the past 3 days, and my marriage that was so awesome had broken down in the past week because of my F***ing self & now with all these bad news…
What am I still doing in the freaking place? Why can’t I be close to them now? Why I wasn’t there earlier?
How could I prevent my parents to spend time with my son? Watch him grow!
I’m so mad – I’m so angry. Very angry!
I know I won’t be able to sleep tonight, and it doesn’t matter what anyone says. It doesn’t help – It doesn’t make me feel any better. I’m angry. Every minute more and more angry and I can’t control it.
There’s just so much going thru my head right now…
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