Everything I think Haven is like

By Benjamin Golan

Benjamin was having a very hard time going to sleep the past two days, we being talking to him for the last hour or so trying to figure it out what’s going on in that little head and I think he finally broke it down.



The poor little boy misses his Vovo Celso! *Sign*  His lil heart is acheing and this won't be the first or the last time that I feel helpless =(

Seeing Vovo Fatima makes him think about Vovo Celso a lot. He is very upset to even think she’ll be living back to Brasil in August. He shared so many interesting things with me that I asked him to hang on while I grabbed my computer go register his ideas about heaven. Here they are:

Me: So Ben, tell me again what you just told me about heaven and vovo Celso so I can type it; ok?

Benjamin: Ok, I don’t remember all I said but I think I said Vovo Celso is in heaven having lots of fun, making new friends there because I’m sure that he is – I mean, having fun and making friends, you know???


I bet he can see outer space there too; because he is in the sky, and outer space is in the sky which is park of heaven and he is just so close to it right now! He is dead but you know – he is still alive in the Sky! He is with Jesus and God and having all kinds of fun and I hope he can write letters too.


I remember the day he left; he said goodbye to me, so I guess that is ok that he left. And you cried so much so dad took me to tia Dani’s house, because you were so sad. But you don’t have to be sad. It’s ok mom!


I miss him and I don’t understand why we just don’t get to see him and I don’t understand who I missed him going to heaven!?!!?!? How did he even got to fly all the way to the clouds and I missed it?

*pause*

B: When are we all going to die?

Me: Oh boy Benji – we reeeeeeally don’t want to talk about that! To die it’s not a bad think at all, but the people that don’t die with you just miss you very much – do you understand?

B: Yes

Me: So can we not talk OR think about this?

B: Yes. But can you still stay with me even after I sleep?

Me: I sure can love.

We kissed good night and just as I re-read this post and added the introduction to his words he was asleep!
Sweet dreams love of mine, this greatful mama is off to bed too!

It’s not easy!

Mara’s dad passed away last week -so yesterday we went to Columbus to cry with our friend - Not just a visit it was healing all over the place. God filled her house with His angels; we had a blessed time with happiness, peace, answers to our questions, reconciliation and lots of love.

It’s had being almost 2 years since I saw/talked to her. So it was great.  Half away of our visit we hear this beautiful music coming from the outside, we go check it was Daleth, Connie & Ze + another 2 families came to visit too. What a blessed time. The 2 families I met there were so much fun! =)

We all had a bunch of good laughs! Hopefully it was good to Mara too (Looked like it was!)
I can’t imagine how hard it is to loose a loving one. But as the brother said during the prayer – he was ready – he even said good bye to his animals! :~(

I was so “in heaven” that my 2-hour drive back home felt like a 15 minutes. The boys were so awesome and this will be just a trip to remember…

Finally here!!!! Tonite & Tomorrow will be busy… some sad news…

Our season tickets came in the mail today!!! (Dan has being checking the mail box for 9 days now…)
They are so good looking - all about old times! =)

Now heading to the door to meet the Gausmann at KI for a fun family night! Sure there’ll be lots to blog tomorrow! =)

In another note: Tomorrow will be the funeral for GrandMae, at age 95 she passed away last Friday =(
RIP Greatgradma!! You will be missed! Wise woman - so much wisdom she had to pass on…