Noah Celso Alberico Golan has arrived

Came into the world past Wednesday 08/16/06 @ 2:19 pm by a sucking emergency C-section.


Weighing 7 #’s 14 oz. & 19’’ long - Noah is doing good, actually gained weight (what is not very common to a newborn) with breast milk only and being very happy and calm baby!Please keep us in your prayers as BF is not going very well for us, but we’ll hang in there & get over this “black cloud”

Beautiful dark hair and everything else looks like big brother Benji!

When transfering my blog I never transfered the comments - except this post I want to keep them, here they are:
 
 
Gege Submitted on 2006/08/19 at 12:42am

Welcome beautiful baby!!!! - He is Gourgeous!
Hang in there mama!!! =) you can do it :*

Shannon Submitted on 2006/08/19 at 2:19am

Love the pic!!!
Welcome to the world little one!!

Daniela e familia Submitted on 2006/08/19 at 3:37am

My sweet Lilian, I am praying and have not stopped for you and BF with Noah, I hope it will be great this time around! I loved being there, blessings, and much rest… Sua amiga e irma de coracao… Dani
Simone

simonemayn@noemail.com Submitted on 2006/08/19 at 3:56am

Parabens Lilian! Tenha fe’ que o leite vai vir e ele vai se adaptar sim!
Beijos, e espero ver seu lindinho logo logo!!!


Dudu e Aline Lebedenco Submitted on 2006/08/19 at 6:46pm

Aeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee LICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Parabéns!!!!!
Deus abençoe mto esse menino lindo, e q nome lindo tbm, gosto mto de Noah!!
Q nosso Senhor te capacite em tudo para essa difícil tarefa de criar filhos e de guiá-los no caminho perfeito de Deus!

Ei, o q é BF???? Boiei!! hehehe.
Fica na paz…. entrega pra Deus….
As coisas aqui não estão fáceis… até agora não consegui trabalho depois q voltamos daí, mas Deus está no controle. Temos q continuar acreditando nisso!!

Abração pra vccs….

Vinicius e Leila Submitted on 2006/08/20 at 12:30am

Parabéns a família e toda a saúde para o novo filhote!!

Marianne  Submitted on 2006/08/30 at 4:06am

Lica e Dan. Parabéns pelo novo filho. Amei o nome dele. Tenho certeza que vcs continuarão sendo essa familia feliz. Amo muito vcs. Um super bj.

Noah’s birth

a back post on Noah's birth

Tuesday I felt something happening, the contractions during the night were pretty intense, I got up to start timing them and just like and on/off switch they stopped was I got up. So Wednesday when I went to the hospital I thought I was already in labor and things were just going to progress after that. I never got checked once I got there, last time I had I was about 3 cms. By 11 am nothing have had happened, then fast after that the contractions started coming, stronger and stronger, faster and faster…


The nurse offered for pain medication, I denied… and a few minutes go by I’m bagging for it! She checked me, 6 cm…

Within the hour I got pain relive, Dr Metherd walks in right at that time, checks me: 9cms/90% effaced & he says: “Your water is going to break soon” After that he checked one more time: “Faster progress then I expected - you are ready, but where is the head? – Nurse, get me a ultrasound machine please” And as soon as he put the ultrasound on my stomach BOOM, everyone could see his big round head right at the top of my belly…

I wish someone was there to help me out with this decision. Have a c-section or not? Breach? What is that again? I heard that word before – I did! Can I do it? Do woman have baby vaginally when they are breach? Ohh Lord! Those 5 minutes were the more horrifying for me! I so wish Randie could be there to tell me I could do it/or not!
I asked the Dr. and he says “I highly recommend a c-section”

I wish I knew this was going to happen, I would not have waited so long to get an epidural!!! Here I was trying to go as far as I could without any drugs and ended up in the OR!

The people there were: Dan, Daniela, Nicole stopped by for a little while, Linda, Carrie, Shannon & Beth Ann. We had my mom in the web can but due to the surgery she wasn’t able to watch it.
There’s more… I just need some time to sit and write!

Freaky

What a freaky shot Dan got of Benji & I @ the pool. Is that my soul trying to escape?! Anyways…

Baby #2 scared the hell out of us yesterday but everything is ok now. I’m 99% sure he dropped - Already 3cm dilated and 50% effaced. I understand I’m 38 1/2 weeks, and will complete 39 weeks on Saturday (Yes, EDD now is 08/19) Whatever!

Benji is doing great - we went to a bookstore today that it’s closing and have books for $1 for paper back and $2 for hardcover - but the store it was like really cool. Feelt like I was shopping in a ”mini” B&N w/ a gret price! They had pretty new books and stuff… It’s cool how much Benji loves books. He does like for us to read *every night* before bed and it was just adorable to see him at the store, browsing & having lots of fun w/ all those books, we spent a long time there and we could of stayed longer!
- He got it from me! =)

It’s funny how things can turn around very fast and all the sudden I feel like an outsider… *CRAP*

Besides that thing going on with my friends I also hate being at home – I never thought I would feel this way (and it may change after the baby is born)

I feel like Benji enjoy me being here for him but also I feel how “sick” of me he gets. I feel like crap in a way, like I’m not getting anything accomplished, housework is the crap because no one notices. I miss hearing “Well done” or “Great Job” when I’m done with a project! I miss working in projects – I miss thinking!

I feel like I have to “run” after things to do with Benjamin everyday so he (and I ) won’t get bored! And this is summer… it seems like it’ll get worst during the cold weather and I’m already freaking out over it!
As Linda said, in a few days I may be bagging to have the “Time” I have on my hands now – she is probably right, but for the time being I’m not really enjoying as I thought I would!

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The past couple of day:

Saturday was Nathan’s birthday – Benji had a blast! Played – played and played! He was exhausted! We got home and showered (he had sand all over, inside of his ears, shoes and all over his hair) and he felt a sleep right the way! That gave Dan and I a chance to talk, watch a movie and just relax for a little bit longer than usual!

We went to the zoo yesterday – Dan never gets to go so since he was home we thought it would be a good opportunity for him to go with us. He was impressed with how Happy Benji was there! They had a lot of fun together, I think Benji loved it that dad carried him and shoed him every animal (because since we got the pass I being pregnant and I don’t have the guts to walk there and old him up in every animal so he can see it) and talking about walking, we did walk about 5 hours non stopping up and down those hills… by the end of the day Benji started getting cranky (of course) and so did I. But we had a nice lunch/dinner around 5pm and just hanged out all together until bad time. It was a nice family day with lots of fun to Benji before baby brother is here!

Some random thoughts:
* I was hoping the 5 hours of walking would do me something but nothing yet! =] (That’s a not very happy smiley face)
* Today is Claudia’s birthday – Clau FELIZ ANIVERSARIO! (She made home safe)
* Blue had a baby brother, I think his name is Sprinkles but I’m not sure!
* Jessica spent last Monday with us and Benji just loved it!
* I have a check up today
* Andrea is pregnant (I’m not sure I’m supposed to know, but I also know she doesn’t read this blog) I hope she is happy, kids are a blessing and I think she is in a good age and it’ll be cool for her! It’ll change the direction of her life, I’m sure.
* I did pack my bad today – baby has no name yet!
* Luciana is coming over for lunch & that should be fun – especially for the boys…

Benji’s love makes it all better!!

My brown eyes cried

…and they will cry even more as Claudia leaves tomorrow.


Talked to dad for a long while today… still feels pretty crap but at least we know more about it, I even got to smile and laugh some throughout the day Thursday.

He’ll need surgery for sure. I just want to move back there.
It was so amazing to feel how some of my friends are connected to me. Thanks Shannon for all the support, I haven’t answered but I got your awesome e-mail. Also another 2 people who doesn’t have access to this blog and are very special to me called (Dani & Beth) out o the blue to see how I was because they felt like there was something wrong…

I may even get to talk to Marcao (I saw you called – sorry missed it! Call back, please!)

-Thanks people. With the thoughts of all this getting worst it makes me feel a whole lot stronger knowing that I have you guys!
It’s surprising how not always comes from the same people the support you need/ want or expect. I’m just really happy I got it.
I TOTALLY have a brake down yesterday – out of control!

It’s way past 1AM and I have NO sign of being able to sleep and rest.

We ended up going to Linda’s house and going to the pool – it was such a perfect “cold” water… Ava was there; she is just getting too cute!!!
We also went to visit Julie’s new baby – What a gorgeous baby! –Welcome Alexa! =)

Benji’s new words:
“Touch down”
And my favorite of the week: “Outside” (Am I in trouble or what? – Soon it will be “Mom what are we doing today? And/or I’m bored!) OMG…

Tried hard to be a better mom today. I got to do even better tomorrow

My world is just about to fall apart…

Today I found out that my dad lost his job. My mom new about this since last Friday but never told me “not to make me nervous”


After looking for something for a long long time he got a very cool opportunity as a supervisor, doing what he did 25 years of his life… August 1st he completed his 3rd month (experience time kind of thing) and he got dismissed because he wasn’t able to keep up. He was ok with it, it really was a lot of work to do, a lot of traveling and he was stressed out but also now there’s only 1 income again (my mom’s). Besides the company gave him a car and a cell phone that the took it away… (of course) I mean - 3 mos. it’s enough to get you “comfortable” with this kind of stuff so I’m sure it’ll be a little hard on him…

Than I thought “Oh, it’s ok, he’ll get by – thank God he is healthy strong man and have a very good sense of humor, this won’t affect him”

Like is that wasn’t bad news enough he had some tests done today because of his consistent heartburn and guess what? He needs colon surgery! ASAP!!!

They haven’t said why and how bad it’s, he’ll find this out tomorrow (hopefully – that’s what he said) but all I can think of is cancer. How can I F***ing know if there isn’t more to it but they are just not telling me because they don’t want to make me worried!

I can’t freaking get into a plan, I’m 38 weeks pregnant which is *not* a good thing because it makes me mad for being pregnant and makes mad at the baby who (poor little thing) doesn’t have anything to do with it!

I’m so sad, so nervous. I just can’t stop crying for over 2 hours, I don’t want to see anyone, I don’t want to talk to anyone… I can’t even control myself. I have being so inpatient. Poor Benji, Dan & Claudia. I was already feeling like crap, feeling I haven’t done a good job as a mom for the past 3 days, and my marriage that was so awesome had broken down in the past week because of my F***ing self & now with all these bad news…

What am I still doing in the freaking place? Why can’t I be close to them now? Why I wasn’t there earlier?
How could I prevent my parents to spend time with my son? Watch him grow!

I’m so mad – I’m so angry. Very angry!

I know I won’t be able to sleep tonight, and it doesn’t matter what anyone says. It doesn’t help – It doesn’t make me feel any better. I’m angry. Every minute more and more angry and I can’t control it.
There’s just so much going thru my head right now…