I guess I started doing this post last Friday and never really published!

Today is Friday the 13^th and everybody is making a big deal over it – what a waist of time.

Claudia should be here in a couple of days, se Deus quiser, and I just can’t wait! I’m thinking about having an “open house” thing for her so people can come by to say good bye. Time is short so unless we do something like that she won’t be able to see everyone!

 

And if you are reading this: “Come over!” ~ Sunday, sometime after 5 pm. Monday is a holiday so come to spend some time here with us, bring the kids; let’s have fun!

She's gone!

“She’s gone!”

Says a Grateful Dead Song!!! And I say: ~I miss her sooo bad…

We had the “open house” last Sunday and she got to see a lot of people, I had Dr. on Monday and Tuesday we went out for dinner at the Pacific Moon; Linda also cooked Thanksgiving Dinner since we weren’t here for that and it was delicious!

Benjamin’s got a new thing now he does with his arms, like crossing his arms – too cute!

Eating like a big boy I hope he is ready for no more bottles during the night! My schedule has failed lately but I need to stick with it. He needs to be asleep by 9pm and after tonight I REFUSE to feed him during the night. I know it will be a hard couple of days but I’ll get thru this! I being so tired and desperately in need of a good night sleep!

Last Monday I found out that we are expecting again. Actually it was a day full of new discovers as I also found out why I had miscarried many times and that instead of having a “pear uterus” my is shaped like a heart – so it’s like a have 2 uterus! ~ So that also explains how I had two periods already being pregnant! So guess what? I’m already 10 weeks!  

God forgive me, I don’t mean to ungrateful but I’m not ready for this! It wasn’t planned and besides, Benjamin is too little!

I’m freaking out so bad and I had cried all the tears I had! On the top of it I’m feeling like CRAP! Barfing daily; as sick as a dog ~ what makes me believe it may be a girl!

I just wrote this huge post and lost it all - so now forget it, I can’t even remember 1/3 of it!

Still trying to adapt to the new life; left home this morning with my toothbrush in my pocket waiting for an opportunity to brush. It’s being like that now, but I’m getting better and more organized, getting to know my limits as well my weakest points. The house seemed under control last night, today we lost it again; but life goes on and I can run up and down like a chicken without a head. I need to take my time and I’ll. I won’t drive myself nuts! ~ I promise!

 If you are reading this and thinking how can I blog but not have time to do my laundry the answer is because I don’t have a washer and dryer at work =oP

Then you’ll say “So how come you have time and a computer but never answer my e-mails? And the answer is because my personal e-mails are blocked here at work, just a few sites are available like the blog.com – that’s why I blog!

 

Benjamin is so funny! Still clapping, walking (running), doing so big, etc… He’s new think now is to stick his tongue out (and let me tell ya – it’s big!) He has being so loving and caring, giving us big long hugs, so sweet! Can’t help himself every time there’s music he’s dancing! Calling with his hands, waving bye, give 5 and all those cool stuff! Benjamin can play by himself for a long time, sitting there in the living room with us. And he defenely likes to play with boys more than with girls (hopefully it’s just the “cooties” or whatever they say!) He stayed at Daniela’s a couple times this week and we’ll do the same next week.

Shannon is coming over tomorrow and I’m looking forward to that! Should be fun! The Bengals pay on Sunday and Monday Nicole is cooking a Brazilian meal for a few girls and I’ll get to go! That should be fun, and already a “birthday party!”